Title: Say what you need to say
Author: hiddenben
Ikäraja: S
Paritus: J/L
Genre: fluff, romance
Summary: It was just a kiss, you know.
A/N: Näitä on tuhansia, mutta inspiroiduin sen verran John Mayerin Say-biisin lyriikoista, että teksti vain syntyi itsestään. Toivottavasti pidätte, koska itse ainakin nautin suuresti tämän kirjoittamisesta.
Say what you need to say
- Ok. We both can’t deny it. What happened is now past. Done. We do not have to think about it. We can’t take it back. And I don’t even want to.
- It’s ok.
- Why do you look like it wouldn’t be?
- ‘Cause I’m frustrated.
- And that’s why you’re like that?
- Yep.
- Well then, say what you need to say.
- What?
- Say what you need to say.
- Well yes, I heard you, but what do I have to say?
- What you need to say.
- God, I hate you.
- Well, that wasn’t new.
*
- Still mad?
- Yeah.
- It happened only once, you can’t take it that seriously!
- There was one time too much, James! I never planned this, I…
- What?
- It’s bugging me! I’m living it through again and again and again, although I don’t want to!
- Was it really that bad?
- No, but…
- But what?
- It’s wrong, James! We hate each other. I don’t want to think about it. I’d better be off from here…
- No! Don’t go yet.
- Why wouldn’t I?
- Cause I want to know, how bad I was.
- You weren’t bad James, it’s just that, that…
- What?
- Oh, nothing.
- No, tell me. Say what you need to say.
- Don’t begin that again, please.
- But that’s the only thing I ask you to do. Just say what you need to say.
- Oh, shut up, will you!
- And now you’re angry with me, again…
*
- James?
- Yes?
- I’m a little afraid.
- For what?
- Giving in.
- And why’s that?
- Cause I don’t know how this all ends. What if we just get all the time angry with each other, and never have peace between us?
- Be honest now with me. Would you like to spend time with me, if you’d know how this all ends, despite of that, if we would end up bad?
- I don’t know…
- You know, Lily, it’s better to say too much than never say what you need to say.
- But I don’t know what my faith is with you! My hands are shaking, and I just want to close my eyes and get away from here!
- Well do it then your heart open.
- What?
- Don’t leave angry. I want to solve this out before you go.
- Fine, then.
*
- It was just a kiss, you know.
- A kiss between Lily Evans and James Potter.
- Something that never happens.
- Exactly.
- I think it’s got something to do with this whole Christmas thing.
- Me, too.
- But it wasn’t bad, though.
- You are quite a good kisser, but it still doesn’t mean anything.
- So, you’re not that type of girl, who hangs out with guys, who can kiss well.
- I’m out from here.
- No, Lily! You promised, remember? Leave heart open.
- You promised. I didn’t do anything.
- But still, stay. What did I say wrong?
- You’ve been in love with me for seven years, or something like that, James, and you think I hang out with guys who can kiss well? I mean, how bad do you know me?
- Well, it was kinda joke, you know.
- Oh, grow up!
- How do you think an almost 17-year old young man behaves?
- Well, better than you!
- You’re being ridiculous.
- Maybe, but I don’t care.
- Why can’t we be together, Lily?
- ‘Cause it wouldn’t work!
- How can you be so sure?
- ‘Cause it just wouldn’t.
- You can’t say like that, when you haven’t even tried.
- Well, I don’t really care. It fights against all my doings and thoughts for the past seven years.
- Wouldn’t it be time for you to change?
- What would every one say, when we would be together?
- “Finally?”
- Ha ha, very funny.
- No, I’m serious. Every one knows that we belong together.
- You’re brains must’ve made a full circle in your head, James, if you think like that. And what about Sirius? He would laugh his brains out.
- Oh, now you’re being annoying. And the only thing, what you think now, is brains. It’s kinda weird.
- Well, usually.
*
- You know, we’ve been here for an hour, or something like that. People begin to wonder, where we are.
- It might be.
- Well, I’m leaving know. I’m thirsty and everything, and there’s a good party upstairs.
- Hmm, really?
- James, let me go.
- No, I won’t.
- Let me go, now.
*
- Can I just hit you? That was the second kiss today!
- Don’t you dare say to me, that you didn’t like it.
- Well, I didn’t.
- Don’t lie to me, Lily.
- Well, fine, you are a good kisser. Now let me go.
- No.
- Why?
- ‘Cause I like kissing you.
- You remind me of a stupid school boy, who doesn’t want to be the last virgin in his class, and does anything to get rid of it.
- Whoa. That kinda ruined this moment.
- Good.
- But you’re still not going anywhere.
- Oh, James, come on!
- Not until you confess something.
- What?
- Say what you need to say.
- Fine, but you asked for this.
- I’m ready.
- Good.
- I’m waiting.
- Here it comes. I don’t know how I feel about you, James. You bright me up, you’re my best friend-boy. You’ve always seen, when I’m not alright, and you do good for me. We match, but I just think, that it’s never gonna be anything.
- Whoa.
- I told you.
- But still, let’s try.
- But could we still be friends, if we would separate?
- Of course. I won’t let you go of any price.
- Fine, then. Shall we go upstairs to tell the ‘happy news’?
- Soon. But first I want to do something.
- Kiss me?
- Exactly. Our first together-kiss.
- Mm, sounds good.
